"Always"

Read the lyrics to this song. This song is sung by an awesome contemporary Christian group called Building 429. We were in the car this weekend and this song came on. It was the first time that I had ever heard it. The only thing I knew to do was to cry and cry. This song has a very powerful message!

"ALWAYS"

I was standing in the pouring rain one dark November night
Fighting off the bitter cold when she caught my eye
Her face was taught and her eyes were filled, and to my surprise
She pulled out a photograph and my heart just stopped inside
She said, “He would’ve been three today
I miss his smile, I miss his face”
What was I supposed to say, but

CHORUS
I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and his promise remains
He will be with you always

He was living in a broken world, dreaming of a home
His heart was barely keeping pace when I found him all alone
Remembering the way he felt when his daddy said goodbye
Fighting just to keep the tears and the anger locked inside
He’s barely holding onto faith
But deliverance is on its way, cause

CHORUS
I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and his promise remains
He will be with you always

Friend, I don’t know where you are and I don’t know where you’ve been
Maybe you’re fighting for your life or just about to throw the towel in
But if you’re crying out for mercy, if there’s no hope left at all
If you’ve given everything you’ve got and you’re still about to fall
Well hold on, hold on, hold on, cause
I believe always, always
Our savior never fails
Even when all faith is gone
God knows our pain and his promise remains
Always, always, He will be with you always


Have you ever wanted something so bad, and it seemed as if you would never get it? If you know me and Will, you know that that thing we want so badly is a child. Sometimes it seems as if we will never ever get the opportunity to be a parent. When I hear about teens getting pregnant, or when I see moms with 5 kids and 1 on the way, not being able to take care of the children they already have, or when I hear of mom's that are pregnant when they can't even take the responsibility to take care of themselves...it makes me so angry and hurt. I have found myself angry at God many time. Why is He giving all these unfit mothers the gift that I have wanted since I was a little girl?!?!? Why is it we get all these adoption referrals, and they all fall through??? WHY!!?? This has really been a hard thing for both of us lately. I say all that not to get a pity party or a bunch of sympathy, but to simply admit that I need God and I can't do anything without Him. When that song came on the radio, I listened to the chorus. It is so true. God will not fail me. Even when it feels like we have done all we can and even when we feel like throwing in the towel, He knows the desires of our heart, and He will never fail us. On days when I feel like I have no hope left at all, I need to remember the words of this song. I know that God allowed that song to be played for me. I was in the right place at the right time to listen, and pour out my heart to God.